To Hungie

So yes i have been slacking off with this blog thing.. come on i am a mother of 2 and work full time... i am excused right?

So i a friend, hungie Fb message me not long ago asking why i have stopped blogging... that really bought a smile to my face... i really didn't think my blogs are interesting enough for anyone to read, so yes it is a good feeling when i know there are people out there reading this. What's there to hide right?

So it's been an interesting few days, firstly i got wolf whistled at by some lebos after work on saturday... obviously cause they only saw the behind and not the flabs that hang at the front LOL, then i get picked up by an old grandfather this morning, also in the same carpark in Liverpool. At first i thought he was just friendly old man talking to me, and ofcourse being the lovely lady i am i start chatting to him too.. next thing he tells me  that he is single and that finding a woman is soo hard and then am i single? umm hello??? geez he made me feel grossed out!!

ZzzZZz..... 24 hrs later

Um... yeah i kinda went to put the kids to sleep and snoozed abit... but i am back !!

So yeah since i dedicated this blog to hungie i should really talk more about him ey... So his like this dude we know... don't see him much these days... hardly really... cause you know we ain't kool enough and that.... so these days we've become more like FB messaging buddies where we exchange one or two liners... but his a kool guy... kinda need to say that cause i know his reading this : P... mentioning the fella... his messaging me now. Oh he wants his photo on here... so  here he is.... HOT AND SINGLE, COOKS DELICIOUS MEALS & DOESN'T EAT SEAFOOD SO CAN SAVE YOU LOTSA MONEY ... anyone available??

and no he doesn't come with a kid :)

So anyways it's been a crazy few days.. hectic like hell at work feeling like i'm running 100miles an hour but still not getting much done. What is it with people these days? What happened to patience, What's wrong with credit managers ! Gosh i really could go on but work is work and it's time to let it go and leave it behind.
 To good things...

My lil man has finally reached one mile stone.... "graduating preschool" 
He had his school leavers party tonight and i guess that was his favorite part of today, totally excited to the point he was just acting silly.. kids for ya ! Unfortunatly we weren't allowed to record the lil peoples performace but did get some picks... Heres my big fella..

It was very hard trying to a straight face due to all the excitement

 

But finally after a few shots, heres a smart looking one

This is Lucas with his sweetheart Jade hahaha

 I am exhausted but reflecting on the day, there is always that lil something that makes the day worth going by and today it was seeing all the lil kids be themselves, very carefree, dancing and singing with not a care in the world, it reminds me of the good old days, reminding me of me back when i was once their age..... if only life could always be that picture it would be AWESOME! but it also made me feel awesome as a mum seeing the lil ones grow soo quick all in different charming ways. The 9 months then pain of labor was all worth while my lil man whose not so little any more...

My time is night time 10pm

So it's been a few days since my last only cause I've been soo deprived of sleep that by the time the boys are asleep, I too have started snoring away.

Anyhows it's my time again and all 3 boys are fast asleep. Woot woot! I love this time of silence, especially after a whole day of dealing with customer at work, it's nice to have this time to myself. Though no wonder I end up sleep deprived... I should go to sleep cause I'll be woken up again in afew hours by lil nix!

Yesterday was Rut's baby shower so Lucas and I had abit of mother and child bonding making cupcakes.. He loves helping in the kitchen but often we forget about letting him get involved cause as most parents, we just want things done quickly and neatly blah blah but yes when I remember to slow myself down and not worry about the outcome soo much I do ask him to join and he absolutely loves it especially when he gets to lick all the left over mix. So all was going well and I remembered to take some picks along the way but I totally forgot to take pics of the end bit... Was pretty until we were in the car driving it over to the party... Nardy breaked and that was the end of our pretty lil work.
His comment ... It's either the cake or we crash... *Sigh*just as much as I wanted to blow my head off .. He was right so oh wells, the kids scoffed if up pretty or not, clean or not clean... 3 second rules right?? Hehe although in this case it was 3mins. Shhh the mums don't know.

We pigged out, played some games like all baby showers do then went home to pig out some more then complained of how fat I was! That's Sunday summed up.

Now going backwards one day, Saturday I got to spend a day with my sister and the boys for a day out at Ikea. It was really nice to have some time with each other even though we don't talk much. I guess we've always been like that... I don't really know why it is, maybe it's because we have 11 years gap difference and that I'm always too much older than she is, mindset wise, maybe I'm just too serious towards her but despite all that, I think we are kool.

I remember as a kid or teenager I should say, I use to resent her alot. I grew up as an only child and then to have a sister that I had to constantly baby sit because mum and dad were always working at the bakery. I was never allowed out and had to always look after her, dropping her off at the baby sitters house before school then picking her up afterwards and to top it off looking after her on the weekends too. I hated this role, hated the burden that was put on me and so I guess a part of me held back on the closeness of what normal sister bond should be.
I wonder if she remembers me locking her in the toilets as a lil kid when she was naughty and making her cry as a get back lol sorry for all those times... I too was just a growing teenager being resentful for the things i was not allowed too do whilst other kids were.
That was many years ago now so I'm really over it. They say blood is thicker than water and it is. We may not be the chummiest of sisters but there isn't anything I would not do for you.

I'll tell more of my child hood years later on...

So the festive season is coming up and there seems to be a million and one things happening all at once or one after another. The thought of having to run around finding 20 presents or so is already making me feel some what mental! I wanna be a kid again now and just receive gifts instead lol!

Anyways, I haven't been asking about favorite part of the day the last few days but was very happy to be hearing Lucas and Nardy bringing it up.

Yesterday Nardy mentioned his favorite part of every day or what he looks forward to the most is when he gets to ride his bike to and from work... He gave me a facial expression of the relaxed feeling he gets when doing so but I was not fast enough to snap it and when I asked him to re do the look, he refused... The only way I can describe it is orgasmatic hehe now picture it yourself! Hehe

Today he msg me to say he didn't have that look when he was riding home and by the time I saw that MSG and msged him back, he was sulking that I never have time to MSG him anymore.... Sorry babe! I really was working hard.. I keep getting distracted by lil things that I just don't have the time to look at the phone.

Lucas's favorite was going to school even though Aiden wasn't there and so he played by himself and then his fav was looking after Phoenix when he was sleeping and crying and him singing ba ba black sheep to stop him..

My fav was seeing Lucas trying to calm his brother down by singing ba ba black sheep... And when he was feeding phoenix yogurt.. You make mummy proud lil fella!

So to the final hours of glory Monday... May tuesday be an awesome one but for now...Sleep tight and don't let the bed bugs bite xox

Some pics from the last couple days... Lucas's reinactment of when Phoenix pulls his hair, his new cool glasses and yeah some randoms

I am dynamite

Titles for blogs are hard, I'm really not much of a creative person to create interesting titles so thanks to 95.3fm for my title tonight... Nothing related to anything I plan to write all....

I actually have no idea what to write , my minds a blank, my eyes are sore and I'm exhausted from the lack of sleep and tending to a sick child. Waking up at 2am and again at 6am to puke and sulking baby! It is the joy of motherhood isn't it?

And as I write, Nardy has come in to tell me his going to phengs and then work after... It's 10.49pm wtf was on my mind. I know I shouldn't feel this way but a part of me can't help it. I think I feel like I'm missing out or something, I really am not sure. He also asked me not to bitch about him but hey im just wanting to be honest.

He asked me what my best part of the day was... That's such a tough q's to answer today with how I am feeling but I do remember having a moment of happiness and that was when Phoenix fell asleep ... In the picture below. Who would not smile seeing that site.

Nardy then said his favorite part was getting to lay in bed and hugging me... Yes I agree that was also very nice... We don't get to do that very often.

Gosh I just dozed off for afew mins or maybe it was afew seconds I better pen off or type off oh you know what I mean ... I'm off to hopefully get some sleep... To the fairy land

Overcoming old habits

So there is a saying by Benjamin franklin: Each year one vicious habit rooted out, in time might the worst man good throughout.

Before the year ends I hope my one bad habit of being so lazy can be out and as promised to myself I will give my boys more time despite how tired or lazy I may be as i had chosen for them to be part of my life and therefore will give them my time as they need.

After starting this yesterday, I've been rather excited about tonight, although exhausted from the 4am wakeup and working all day, i was excited about coming home from work and seeing my boys. I went straight to the room to see all 3 boys inc Nardy in the cool air con room... This was my favorite part of the day... Seeing them... Seeing their smile! Although Nardy didn't have much of a smile... He was all tired.

I had a moment with Nardy alone and asked him what his favorite part of the day was.... It was kind of really weird asking cause we never really ask each other that but I kept trying. I think even he felt weird being asked ... He probably didn't have a favorite so I asked him to think of something positive for the day... For him it was seeing the fog. Hehe but yes another thing I am glad of trying... It's like trying to push out of your comfort zone and connecting with each other again as most days we or maybe just I just neglect each other....however it feels great for just trying to break this habit!

Lucas's favorite was going to Cabramatta with his grandparents to eat his favorite red rice and crispy fried chicken from Tan Viet and buying a small ball.

Phoenix was probably his every feed! Lol the lil buggar is growing soo quick. Just over the last couple of days his already able to pull himself up to standing position.
His little yabbering has also changed the last few days, sounding like his actually saying something.

So as my eyes are struggling to stay open i'll end it with a quote I saw posted on fbook last night by Tamia... I think it's great and often I do worry about what people think.... Should I really care though? I guess not.

Sweet dreams my friends!

It's a new start

So here I am, another attempt at blogging. I think I've started something like this many years ago but cannot recall where that blog is now, I also recently tried writing my thoughts in a gratitude book but only did it once then gave up.... But iPhone.... How amazing it is, how simple it all seems to be right now....again only early days I hope I can keep it up.

I've been reading a friends sisters blog on Facebook and it is her that has inspired me to do one too.... If a mother of 3 can find the time to do this, so can i! Thanks Vien! Though I really don't think mine will be as entertaining as hers.

So why I really wanted to to start this, was to give myself that few minutes a day to reflect upon the day that past. To give myself the chance to soak up the things that happen around me and be grateful and appreciative of it, and air out whatever is on my mind, as I know I go by each day, taking most things for granted.
I want to give myself a chance to try and be a better mum and have more interaction and communication with Lucas and those around me... I did that tonight and I feel great! I'll explain in a bit.

So to a new start... I want to say thank you to my mum & dad, I should really say it to you face to face but we've never been the type to express our emotions face to face so i find it hard but I will one day. Thank you for being there, for being my support and looking after the kids while I am not around. I know it's tough some days and you would rather a break but yet you don't give up and keep on going for me... For my little family. I really appreciate it!

Thank you to my hubby, Nardy... You are such a great father to our kids and I love you loads for that! Some days I watch you play with them and feel a little guilty that I don't have that energy to do the same. I've promised myself i will try. Love you long time!

Anyways, so yesterday after work I dropped by Aldi for some Xmas stickers that were on sale for $2.99, and as you usually do in aldi.... You get carried away with other things to buy. I found a tin with some kids cards game it and I thought of Lucas. I thought this would be good for me to play with him and he would be very excited that I was playing with him too.
I finally gave it to him tonight after constant nagging for his suprise. Indeed he was very happy, the excitement on his face is all worth it.

After we played a game of "go fish" he was happy to go to bed without any whinging. Just as he was about to sleep I remembered I really liked Viens idea of asking the kids what their favorite part of the day was... I woke him up and asked him.......

Lucas favorite part of the day was preschool because he got to do a dance practice that they are doing for the farewell in a couple weeks. The boys got to sit on the steps and then the grls went onto the stage... This is all I got from him cause it is suppose to be a secret.
I told him my favorite part of today was playing cards with him because I don't usually and it made me really happy.

As soon as I said that, he gave me a hug and went straight to sleep.

I'm so glad I did this tonight, I think although his not even 5 yet, even he knows I don't play with him much and feels touch for what we done and said tonight. Love you big fella!

Good night all, it's the end to my new start... But only for tonight... I know I will be back this time.